The One

"My problem is wanting to be the girl whom everything stops with. I want to be the girl who, for once, doesn’t break the guy’s heart. I want to be The One – girl. I want to be the one he says I love you to for the first time. I want to be The One he can picture himself marrying. I want to be it."

~ from a journal entry on April 24, 2008,

the "he" being referred to was a stranger to me at the time

I think it's fascinating to go back over my old journal entries. A lot of times, I'm surprised by the maturity and wisdom of my broken heart longing for Christ's peace. Other times, I'm equally surprised by how young and immature I was/am with my idealism. Praise God for leading us through broken roads faithfully. He always holds our hands even when we veer from the paths of Truth and Obedience. Even if God had never given me a life partner, He would be good and faithful. I praise Him for the gift of marriage and pray that I become more like Christ through the unique challenges marriage will bring.

So today as I rearrange our condo and sort through all of my paper clutter and his technology clutter (cameras, cables, cords, monitor) that I don't know what to do with, I'll praise God for hearing my prayers and mending my broken heart a thousand times over and leading me to Justin Ryan Tanner and his cables. :)

I will bless the LORD at all times;

His praise shall continually be in my mouth.

My soul shall make its boast in the LORD;

The humble shall hear of it and be glad.

Oh, magnify the LORD with me,

And let us exalt His name together.

Psalm 34:1-3